my ex blog

2005-05-30T02:10:00.000+08:00

Yeahh! New liife, new feeliing so new blogskiin and tagboard! so many pple scold me for not bloggiing. Sorriie sorrie la. esp joanne! hahaha. hmmm now ii'm iin the double "ii"s mood. BORED. well. today's joanne de Os is it? well good luck!!!

hmmm. so late liiao. and shun abandoned me! guess she fell asleep le bahh. siighhs. was conferencing with pearlynn, melinda and peter, until bout 12.45. They decided to go to sleep one by one. haha. we totally crapped all the way man. talked bout almost everything possible. star wars, LOTR, harry potter, LOST, blahh blahh. then peter sang xmas carols of us too! haha. another sessiion on tmr aftnn. hopefully more people.

ii'm currently chattin with yiquan DEAR (bleahhs) and his miie. haha. ermmm no comments on that.

well lets see. wat are my plans for tmr? ii'm gonna meet pat, shun, mengg, joyce and liling and maybe jess (which i forgot to ask) to go shoppiing at bugiis before the big TERROR! which is reults!! ahhh. i hope ii did well lor. 2 months++ of not see -taufik lehh. so dun play play ar. ii kiinda miiss him frankly speaking. ii miss the feeliing of overwhelming exciitment in me. sighhs. hopefully we'll get to see hiim soon, cause i'm gettiing tiired. v e r y t i r e d . . .

*** ok folks! up till here for today. TAGG MY BOARD! and, ii wanna change a url lehh. PLS PLS do give your suggestiions. they will be strongly consiidered, i promiise!

2005-04-23T10:17:00.000+08:00

lalala. kk. im so lazy to do up my links now, esp when its exam period la. and im gonna change url too. but after exams also la. yupps. this week was really sucky la. suayy week mans!

yupps. and the most suckiiest part was your freaking idiotic irritating attitude towards us can?! omgg. wats your prob la? did we even do anything wrong?! well, even if we did, you could have at least told us the reason right? for the first few days we were really lost, din even know wat the hell was going on la. but well, i guess we sorta got used to it after the days went by, by friday i really cannot tahan liaos lor! i was damn pissed la, so was kinda mean la. like duh~ wat do you expect me to do when you have a frend suddenly turn her back against you, and you dun even know why. its really very irritating de lors!

i freaking hate you man! hate your stinking attitude! i guess, i never really got to know you and your true self, until now. you're sucha childish person mans. if you are doing it to take revenge for wat we were planning to do on monday, then i really think you are very petty la, cause you started it last week de nors. if that's not the reason, then i really dunno le la, cause you din even bother to tell us. have you ever thought of us and how we felt arhs?! im really starting to doubt my frendship with you.

here's a riddle then shun developed from huiting and nat de joke. and i found the irony behind it! woohoo~ here goes. [[ why does pooh (winnie the pooh) have no friends?]] ans: cause it is poo! wahaha! get it?!

kk. on a lighter note. managed to pass fik a note and our lolli thro his Bonafide mate! wahaha! thanks for helping us and talk to us yea? and thanks for telling us bout the childhood thing!!! we were damn happy mans! ya. and fik actually said something la, it wasnt a promise la, so dunno if it really happened tho. i really want to find out man! ermmm and im looking for tricia and geraldine who we met at the back of kallang theatre!!! its damn urgent and important!!!

okie. gotta study now. byeeeeeeee!

2005-04-18T17:29:00.000+08:00

heyya! wahaha. once again i stopped blogging la. sorrie!!!! whaha. changed template liaos. will change the music soon la, now kinda late le. yupps! well, lotsa things been happening. happy things, sad things, frustrating things blah blah. but... i shall not blog too much bout them cause firstly, somethings are inconvinient to put in this blog (then wat for have a blog in the first place?! i dunno) and secondly i got no time to blog liao.

haha! thought of the past. really pleased with myself now frankly. managed to live thro the horrors of life and still be able to life. life sucked last year, seriously. but got over it! and am leading a happy and ideal life now. (at least for myself la) remember last year man... woahh shall not tok bout that right now la. anyways, to aherm, really... you should get out of it la. not worth making your life so miserable. be like me! i like it this way.

yupps. and ermm. i was supposed to blog bout somehing (shun should know la) but decided not to spoil my SO HIGH mood now. maybe some other time. but of course i still bu shuang la. HAHA.

hmmm. oh yes! and i wanna thank that special someone. haha. you helped me so much for so long, and i din even really thank you and all la. so.. here's a great big THANKS! whaha. thanks for always being there for me. or answering me when i kept screaming "how?! how?! how?!" and for helping me solve so much of my probs in life. waha. love ya!

and i also wanna scold someone!!!! ARGH! you're SO getting on my nerves ok! omgg. freaking idiot! you expect me to always give in to you is it? why must it always be me?! why do you talk as tho its totally not your fault but mine?! no wonder pple laugh and talk bad bout you behind your back! leave me la!!! irritating!! i know that i shouldnt be treating you for granted and asking you to fuck off, but im already going to burst! you are SO making use of me, whether you realise it or not, i dun give a damn k. haha! is it you? are you feeling guilty after reading this?! you'd better apologise man! haha. well, it's you if i dun reply your sms-es or msg-es online.

kk. i'd better continue being guai and go study! decided to go revision and all liaos. i actually managed to break away from tv and com, thats a great thing. use to think it was impossible. wells. i shall suffer today and enjoy tmr. wish me luck~ :))

yoooooooo!

2005-04-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

long time no blog. i guess after such a long period of time i lost all my readers, not that anyone actually reads my blog la. but can you see how cold and abandoned my tag board is? its so pathetic! i feel so sorry for it man, for having an owner like me. wahaha. yupps.

should i explain why i never blog for so long already? ok i shall since i got nothing much to blog about la. cause beginning of march hols, COM BROKE DOWN! ahhhh. my father rushed here rushed there to get all the parts needed, and when it was fixed i realised i lost interest in blogging le, i prefered tv at that point in time la. then now my father decided to give me this com (yeah! all to myself) but its damn lao ya, i'd rather not have it la. it hangs every 10mins la. sucks la. all these things make me no mood to blog le. SO DUN BLAME ME! blame them.

harrharr. im supposed to blog bout ermmm let me see, High on Life and my ben yeo at FEP!!! haha. but now no time la. got time then i update la, no time jiu shuan le. you all can go joanne, belle, shun or joyce de blogs to read up for more info.

today sian la. monday is the suckiest day man. first day of skool. but after skool fun la! went town meet belle and jo. let that place la. instead, went walk walk and took neoprints. i looked ugly man, hate the second round! haha. but at least it was fun la. cant wait till ALL of us can meet up again! yupps! i slack man. din do any homework at all. now my mother down here asking me to go to sleep. i shall be a pig and go SLEEP! yeah~

oh yes! i might be changing url la. this one sounds to childish... shun tot of highonlife.blogspot.com. how? quite nice right? promote anti-drug lehhs. i shall change some other day when i am free la. dun copy arhs!

YOU PPLE BETTER TAG MY BOARD HORS! ITS SO LONELY! reminds me of nirasha and the song she was singing. *sings* lonely, i am so lonely... HAHA! something liddat de la.

bestest birthday ever!

2005-03-01T13:50:00.000+08:00

alamak. i finally got time to update my blog le la. wahaha! today i nvr go skool cause sick ma... heng ar. i get to miss amaths test! haha! but tmr i still got chi and chem test lor. plus... my chem book is in skool! how?! haha. heck la. aiyohh. this morn i went out of the house to go skool, den half way decided dun wanna go le. so dropped my sis off then my mother sent me back home. haha! i supposed to go bmg to drop the thing off today cause last day leh... now cannot liao. if i sneak out of the house sure kena scolding de lor. die la.

kk. i'd better update about sat first... i kinda forgot wat happened in detail liao lehh. ermm in the morn went to meet joanne and sylvia then went to --. haha. did some del stuff and wrote letter there. then after that went to taka to meet shun and joyce. found out that sly left liao. so went down to clarke quay to meet belle for the event liao lor. we were quite late la, so ended up at the back. we din manage to squeeze to the front to just stand at the platform at the back where sly and fik could see us. sly waved quite a few times when he singing lors. then sylvia and me went to the front there. haha. haha! then pple played games and blah blah. then fik came out to sing too. when fik singing jo and belle they all at the back with the F-I-K then me and sylvia infront with the T-A-U!

after that got mini auto session to sign on our posters. sylvia and me went up first cause we were in front. i din manage to open the wrapper lor. so passed to the hype guy help me open! haha. sly signed le, then hug hug. haha. the security shouted "not hugging move move!!!" haha too bad la, i hugged le. then passed my letter and lollipop to fik. then i told fik, "must eat ar..." and guess wat?! he straight away opened the wrapper and ate the lolli lor. i got shocked man! haha... yupps. then went down the stage and got more posters to sign. so sylvia and i went to que up again while the rest signed theirs. yipee! got to go up again. since fik eating lolli so me and shun also decided to eat. haha. went up, then i told sly to write my name. so i spelled la 'G-A-B-B-Y" and he couldnt hear cause i was eating lollipop. i kept repeating lor. then he wrote a D, and was like "D wat?" aiyohh. wrong la. then fik told him "gabby la, g-a-b-b-y" wahaha. i din ask fik to write my name la, but he wrote... he's damn nice lor. then he told me "eat lollipop still wanna talk la!" haha. everyone laughed. by now he already not eating the lolli liao lor, so i asked him "you so fast eat finish ar?" then he did that -crunch crunch- action with his mouth. haha! ya lor. then went off stage.

then we went back to pack up abit. then chionged out of the place liao. belle was busy talking on the phone trying to book maxi. haha. then me and shun went down to the carpark there try to find their combi. found 2, then shun talked to the driver and confirm is fetching them de. he park near the lift there ma. so we stand at the lift there wait also lor. when the lift started to go up we all kan chiong man. so scary la! then the doors opened, its taufik!!! haha. the stupid guards kept pushing us away lor. but managed to get my cap signed la. fik was like "can i sign this for her first?" haha. then he put the cap back on my head. he's damn nice!! then he told us that he gg down to nanyang girls. but we continued waiting for sly first la. he came down by lift also, but din really get to talk much la, he walked damn quickly. and din really tell us where he going also.

so we took the cabs that we booked down to nanyang lor. sylvia, jo and belle reached first. then when joyce shun and i reached, saw fik coming out of this door la, he going to backstage. belle asked him if we could take pic. and he said "later k... see if they let me" haha. so we just waited outside and come stupid security wanted to chase us away la. then more people came la. shun and joyce had to rush for tuition, then i had to go home le. about this time he came out. then we asked for pic again lor. but the stupid security pple kept pushing him into the combi and pushing us aside. fik asked for us lor, he said "can i take a pic with them first? jus one pic" but in the end cannot la. tried to get him to sign joyce's cd also, but din manage to. he kept using his hand to do the I-M-M thingy, haha asking us to go IMM for auto session. then jo asked him where he going. he said he going home. but i cannot go liao, so jo belle and sylvia went lor. i went back with shun and joyce.

-fast foward la- then at night went to OP at J8. about 9pm liddat joanne called me lor. i was damn scared la. haha. then she asked me to listen, can hear background taufik singing bday song for me. wahaha. it was damn nice. i stunned down there lor. then after that they passed the phone to him and we talk talk awhile la. haha. he asked me how old im gonna be. and i told him 15 lor. and he said that im old liaos. diao -__-" if im old wat is he? haha. then he asked me wat im gonna do on my bday and all. and i told him project lor. and he laughed la. could hear belle they all at the back laughing also. haha. i told him that i might not be able to rush down to imm in time la. he said nvm cause he will still be in singapore, can look for him anytime ma. haha! then i asked him if he know who i am anot. then he replied "lollipop girl lor." haha!!! yupps. anyways. thanks belle, jo and sylvia for everything lehh! the vid rocks!!! haha. i know how to see his face liao, make your screen brighter! haha...

yupps! that's about it bahh.

*// annabelle gabby joanne joyce shunli sylvia loves sly and fik!

fik rocks

2005-02-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

okok. i cannot update much now la cause my mother damn pissed off with me these few days. haha. and i din update the past few days also cause most of the time i was out, or im doing work to 'pay back' for the time i went out.

yupps! well. many things happened yesterday that sooooo ROCKED can? haha. joanne, belle, sylvia, joyce, shun LOVE FIK!!! haha. yuppyupp. fik was damn nice yesterday, i shall tok more bout that in the next post la. or you can go read joanne's or belle's blog. i dunno if the rest blogged le anot.

taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks taufik rocks

okok. sly rocks too. but... FIK ROCKS! thanks taufik! and of course thanks for all the bday presents from everyone! xie xie!!!

hmmm i shall go watch that vid more times before i go to bed. sure got sweet dreams de! byeee!

stupid fuckers!

2005-02-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

boring skool day. lucky had no tests tho. then had assembly la, was SOO hoping that jerry was gonna come lorrs. but in the end not la, it was the talk for our sec 3 adventure camp next week. sianx lehhs. dun feel like going for camp with my class, maybe cause im not too comfortable with them yet la. cause im most of the time isolated in my stupid next-to-the-wall sit. hopefully will bond more with the class thro the camp la. i miss twooneohfour badly now man! sighx.

yupps. nothing much le la. just so fucking pissed of la! argh! ya ya... dun ask why la. anyways, thanks to everyone who tagged!

(( - sylvia - ))** haha. so fun chatting in the convo that day sia. everyone was just flooding non stop! wahaha! thanks for scaning in the pic lehh! cya on sat too yea? tc!
Joanne** jo!!! your board finally can tagg too! haha. yupps! Gabby miss Sly, Joanne miss Sly, Joyce miss Sly, Belle miss Sly, Sylvia miss Sly!!! heng you can come ar... we're all gonna have fun yea? hees! -happiness- sighs. no comments on your last tag la. haix!
belle** yeah! we love sly!!!
[m]eLissa__`** thanks for linking me lehhs! i linked you up too! ya sly rocks!

i miss sly lehh...

2005-02-22T18:52:00.000+08:00

ya... nothing much today la. just test test test lor. got SS test, e maths re-test and physics practical. sianx la. i cant really rmb wat i did today le lehh. so ya... after skool stayed back for practical until bout 4pm. was damn hungry but shun liling they all dun wanna wait for me to finish la, so in the end i went home without eating la. yupp! tat's it for today i guess. im sly-sick la. hurry come back can? haha. yay! today dun really have alot of homework so can slack! shall reply taggs now!

belle** haha no wonder tat day got that pw thing pop up again! haha kk. i add you le. tc k? cant wait till end of this wk! then can see him again! you going too right? haha. cant wait to see you and jo too! FUN!
shun** ya lor finally alive again la. haha. yupps im kinda feeling purple nowadays la. font purple blog purple too! haha... ya. so you must help me keep the tag alive to mars! ((:
huiting** ya i know purple your fav colour! wahaha. i will try not to let it rot la. but you know... im a lazy girl, wat to do lehhs? cya in skool too! -like, duh~ you're in my class! haha.

yay! i feel ermm good! cause i blogged! okok i'll try to be good and guai and blog. wahaha... see how long this can last man!

revived blog... finally!

2005-02-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

yoooo! haha. havent blogged in a long long time cause i got bored of my very dead blog. so now i decided o make it more colour instead of the initial black and white. haha! nice? yall better tag my board horss, i dun want it to die so fast! ((:

hmmm so ya. just normal stuff lately, like skool and chasing lors. woa. but skool sucks more and more lor. so many tests every week. im suffocating here! ya ok. i shall update more bout my idol-chasing stuff instead of my crap la.

[[14th Jan 05]]
fik had event all over town that day, so decided to go see see. went down to the first stop: Orchard MRT station after skool. still very little pple. so went to buy food and eat and all. saw mei shi there too! yupps. then jo came to us and told us that sly coming too! YAYNESS! i was damn happy can? haha. so i wrote letter and blahs for him, think the fik fans werent really happy lahs. more and more pple came. saw joanne and belle too! shun and i decided to go up to wait instead. not long later fik's combi came la... but no sly. was kinda dissappointed lehh. haha. then fik went down for awhile then came up again. so i passed him the lolli lor.

then we rushed down to heerens. lost shuhui and joyce half way. shun and i were standing outside hmv. it was damn crowded la... then we moved upstairs. shun wanted to go find the combi but i din know where so tot better not to la. then fik came and left really soon. so me and shun ran to the lift and tried to find the carpark. the damn lift take so long la! we managed to find the carpark and the combi, but fik just went in lor. (din know sly there at first, so din see him also la) we waved the lolli at him then he have us a flying kiss la. haha!

so 'bia' down to cine there. saw the combi caifen told us that sly inside. so we all crowded arnd there lor. haha! saw sly!!! was damn happy la. but the driver was damn fierce, he kept scolding us non-stop lor. he was shouting at us lehh! STUPID IDIOT la... i gg deaf le lor. haha. but in the end the uncle opened the door to come out, so i stuck my hand in and passed the letter and lolli to sly lors. he saw the wristband and pointed at us quite a few times la. he was trying to tell us something de. but i couldnt see wat he was mouthing la, cause the damn driver chased us into the building! then fik came back to the combi le...

so we took taxi down to ps for the next stop. but by the time i reach there i gtg home le lors. cause my mother will scold me de ma. so went home with joanna in the end la, by mrt. yupps! tat's bout it.

[[15th Feb 05]]
kk. now for the most recent one. the in between taufik de next time then i update lahs, too lazy. haha. well. went for the beedees session thingy. went with shuhui and joyce. we 3 no tix de lor. we were one of the earliest there la, but when the security asked the fans to line up to go in, we din join the line cause no tix. so the 3 of us were the only ones at the other side lor. haha! then joanne and belle came too, without tix too! haha. but in the end i managed to get tix frm jo, belle and co. (thanks lehhs! :)) shuhui and joyce got in with another grp of girls. waited damn long for them to come lor. so we went to sign up for the beedees membership thingy and got a free bra strap. haha! then we also went to do the tatoo thingy to get a free sly or fik board. after that got lucky draw to pick pple to go up on stage to take pix with fik and sly. was so nervous lor. but in the end dun have la. but belle and cheryl got picked tho! lucky girls la...

then the came le. sly sang 'its my life' and 'an jing'!!! i was damn high la! haha. but was at the corner of the stage la, not too good. the security kept telling me to move away from the wires, but cannot la, no space le!! haha. then sly bluffed us?!?! he told us to go back to our seats then he will walk arnd, instead of us crowding arnd the satge. so we happily walked back to our places, then he said 'joking only lahh' and he found it very funny la! haha. so we all rshed back to the stage. then fik sang 'supertition' and 'one last'. then ya... something happened so joyce and i left first. met cheryl and her frend when we were leaving in a cab. so we all went home together la.

okok. i end here liao. tmr then continue if i got the time. my mother gonna kill me if she finds out that im still here! byeee! RMB TO TAGG LEH!

** gabby` misses sly SO MUCH! hope the day he coming back hurry up come sia. or i will die of waiting!

i love you too!

2005-01-07T20:35:00.000+08:00

lalala` i think this is the bestest day of 2005 so far! haha. im so damn happy! gabby is a damn damn happy girl today!!! lalala` haha ok enough of crap la. i know i never blog for so long le, but also nobody read one i suppose. haha. yupp skool started le. and you might ask "how's skool" well. my answer would be IT SUCKS! skool means no sly and more work resulting in more headache man.

hmmm lets see who my teachers are. they are all kinda boring la.
Form teach: Mr Teh (wahaha him again)
Physics: Mr Yap
Social Studies: Mrs Farm (yucks)
E and A Maths: Mr Teh (yupp again)
Geography: Mrs Farm?! (sucks la)
Chinese: Cheng Wei Lao Shi (she's nice)
Literature: Mr Armstrong (damn damn funny)
Chemistry: Ms Champion (hmmm..)
PE: Ms TJL (ahhh i think she still rmbs)
yupp thats about it i guess. i miss twooneohfour la. we had really GREAT teachers and the class totally ROCKED la! sighh. im not too familiar to the pple in 3/3. so not very used to it yet la. but i found a slyer!!! yay!

well okie. enough of the boring stuff! yay!!! we saw sly today! thanks to *ahem* haha! thanks leh!!! after skool (stupid geog end so damn late) we rushed like hell man. took cab down there but they already inside le. so we waited outside la. saw joanne there too! :)) haha. the guy brought food for us. got all the big big posters of sly and taufik lor! very nice and shuaii leh! haha. we toked yvonne abit and she actually quite nice one leh!! haha. yupps. then got balloons frm the yvonne. -fast forward k? i lazy- kk. then sly and taufik after press con came out and signed some stuffs. but too many pple. so the bao mus took our things in and let them slowly sign lor. i passed my pinkk cap (yay!), my skool diary, 2 other pix and the wristband. after signing they brought the things back out for us. so i put on my cap and the wristband lor.

the best part! sylvester and taufik came out!!! yayness! so i passed sly the dammnnn outdated letter. sly smile smile at me then he pat pat me cap lor! wahaha. then i ask him to hug hug, then he hugged me back! YAY! lalala` haha. damn happy la. very nice to hug him lehh!! he hug damn tight and long one la. yay. kk. then he went up the van first. heng he sit right infront of me la. then i kept pointing to the wristband, and he was like nodding and nodding then say "i know i know" and smile smile la. then i point somemore then do the "ok" sign then he also do back. haha. the van still haven move la. so i did "i love you" to him. then he point to himself then said "love" then point to me then said "too". which is... "i love you too"!!! haha. then waved byebye then he go le.

then we got somemore food frm them. then eat and walk. went to develop the pix then sat down for awhile then went home liao.

**special thanks to all the people that made this possible for me. you guys made my day! thanks!

our lucky days

2004-12-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

lalala` haha. havent blogged in ages. ya ya... i know. im lazy. i cant help it! haha. but finally got very very interesting things to blog about le! haha. and of course is mostly bout sly la. ermmm but i kinda forgotten a whole lot of it le. owell, i shall just blog wat i remember la.

friday` woohoo~ dick lee's concert! met shuhui and joyce at kallang mrt at about 10am. then walked all the way to the Kallang Theatre. yay! we were the first to reach there! the place damn ulu lor. we walked around... then more pple started to come. met christine there alone, so she joined us. haha. then got this guy at the other side there. so i asked shuhui "who is that ar? go and see leh." then she replied "dunno leh, eh he looks quite cool leh!" then i looked also la. it was this guy wearing this shiny red jacket with this cool cool silver shades. haha. quite cool la, but abit old tho. opps. =X then suddenly joyce was like "dick lee dick lee!!!" hahaahaha! it was actually dick la. so we ran there and got him to auto lor. then he wrote our names. when it was my turn i said "my name's gabrielle. but can you just write gabby?" then dick lee said "gabby, thats cute" whahaha! he say gabby cute leh! hmm but also not say i cute. humph! haha ok... im crapping. dick lee was quite nice la. cause when he was about to go in, he told us "psst! they (which is sly and taufik) will be here at about 1" yay! :))

then jasmine came too. we decided to change place la, cause our side there no shelter... damn hot. then we just sat there and talk talk talk lor. the wait was like damn lllooonnggg. then at bout 2+, they finally came!!! yay. haha. sly came out first i think, is it? anyways, i passed sly my letter, shun's and mengg's letter and the wristband that joyce and i got for him. haha. then i grabbed his hand and walk along with him lor. but for awhile only la, then they went in. so christine, joyce, shuhui, jasmine and i went down to orchad for lunch. met up with shun and walk walk lor. then we were outside the grand hyatt hotel. we saw this combi with its curtains all drawn, then outside the hotel got alot of cameraman and all. so we suspected that stef sun yan zi was there. so we stood there for awhile and guess wat?! yan zi came out! haha. she was damn skinny and pretty la! she super friendly too! she waved back to us and talked to us. but she in a hurry so she left. haha! lucky bah? hopefully we everyday also can liddat leh! :))

saturday` heard that sly and taufik will be appearing at PS for the starhub roadshow. only got permission to go at the very last minute! so i ciong man. i ran all the way there (frm the mrt la)... but i was abit late la. when i reached, sly already started singing an jing le. so i squeezed my way through. managed to squeeze all the way to the barricade there, but got scolded by this girl la. opps. haha. but i dun care la. just kept screaming for sly. shuhui and joyce were inside le. then joyce had to sing song on stage lor. haha. so damn funny! i was downstairs shouting "joyce rocks!!!" haha. i too high le ma. then in the end joyce's group won!!! yay! was so happy!!! then blah blah la, they talk talk then sign auto for some pple. then they gonna leave le. so we formed a row for their pathway to walk through la. then i was right beside sly!!! so i reached my hand out. then the stupid security guard pushed me damn hard! ouch! i almost fell down. but i dun care la. i just reached my hand back for sly. then he looked at me then he grabbed my hand quite hard la. haha! i was so damn happy man! usually is i grab him, now he grabbed me back! lalala` hahahahahaha! :)) then he smiled at me, and din let go. so i ran along with him lor. but the guard scold me again, so gotta let go. haha. but good enough le la.

after that we got news that they at cine for hi-tea. so we took a train down. we couldnt find the place at first. so decided to take a lift up, saw felicia chin (chen feng lin) and the yi xuan (frm the champions). woaaa, they damn pretty leh! haha. but the lift too full... so we waited for another one. then went to the k-box place. got quite a lot of pple la. but sly and taufik havent arrived yet. so we just waited and waited lor. actually only those that won the tix then can go in. but in the end they let the fans in also la. hees! :)) but we only can stand at the back. sly sang "he aint heavy, he's my brother" and "an jing" again. then he sang "i dream" with taufik too. they also sat down and talk talk la. me and joyce at the back ping ming take pix. then got this nice jie jie helped us to go infront and take lor. haha! thanks hor! :)) yupps. then sly and taufik left. but we werent allowed to leave yet, as the doors were still locked. so took pix with daniel and all la. then after that joyce and i went home. shuhui and jasmine continued to hang arnd lor! haha. fun fun day too! hopefully this week got more bah!

2004-12-12T09:24:00.000+08:00

heyyheyy! so long nvr blogged liao. ha! cause nothing much really happened la... just slacked around. if you wanna know wats gg on in my life you can go shun's and joyce's blog ba... we do almost the same things de! haha. ok... im crapping. hmmm i shall blog bout wat happned yesterday and yesterday de yesterday. :))

yesterday` cant really rmb already leh. i went orchad with my family in the afternn. damn boring la... just walked around ck tang and taka. **my father saw 5566 de sun xie zhi leh! haha. apparently xz was walking towards paragon. but i din bother to chase la, too lazy. anyway... its also not ren fu ma! haha. in the evening went to grandma's place for dinner. yummie as usual! then watched SI. woa. cant even watch in peace lor. cousins playing the com, all the ladies toking and toking away, uncle slamming SLY! ARGH!!! he knows i am a sly fan la! still purposely slam him right in my face. my father leh? sometimes slam, then sometimes see my face really pek cek liao, then he also speak up for sylvester. haha! and my useless cousins! they like sly de lor... then they just dun care dun care one... din even watch his performance! woa lao eh! i was damn angry man! ok... then went home after that lor.

yesterday de yesterday` hahahahaha! damn HIGH ar! went down to padang to wait for sylvester! cause sly and taufik were supposed to perform for the india car rally thingy. supposed to meet joyce, shuhui and meishi at city hall mrt at 10am. but i was 15 mins late! haha. sorrie!!! haha. then we made our way up. we din really know where to go... but just anyhow walk lor. then we saw the white tents so we walked over la. not many pple were there yet lor. only a few grps of pple. so we got ourselves a place. but the floor kinda wet, so joyce shuhui and me went over to BK and got the paper that they lay their trays with, ha, we sat on them! and we just sat there the whole day. damn hot lor! then went for lunch, and fetched shun and mengg over. we just sat there and slack slack la. the thing supposed to start at 2pm lor. sly and taufik reached at bout 3pm la. then they went backstage. haha! they were really cute! they kept taking turns to go to the toilet. i think they did it on purpose la, so they could see their fans and their fans could see them ma. we waited for the whole morning leh!!! they rally thing could only start when the cars arrive, and guess wat time did they arrive?! 5-6pm++ lor! so damn late!!! oh yes! did i mention that we had to sit under the hot sun for the whole day?! the tents were for INVITED GUESTS ONLY! so idiot! we were so damn far away from the stage!! actually at bout 4+ taufik came out to perform "me and mrs jones" cause it was his b'dae. unfortunately, sly din come out! 6+ sly came out first, he sang 'he ain't heavy, he's my brother" again... haha! but it was nice la!!! he looked damn shuaii and cool! haha. i cant really rmb wat happened during the performance la... cause i was screaming my lungs out all the way!!! ahhh! haha. have you ever seen me scream? i think only sly can make me scream like siao ba... he's the only one so far!

then taufik came out to sing "i dream". by that time shun, mengg and me were running to the back. haha. actually we wanted cut through the back to run over to joyce and shuhui that side. then we realised "eh! we are in the restricted zone, where all the vans parked!" cool eh? then shun was like "can anot?" then they policeman there said "can la can la... just go in" haha! yayness!!!! we were the only fans inside lor! was trying to get joyce and shuhui in too, but they dunno where we were.

wahaha! then sly and fik coming out by our way there. so we just guard in the middle lor. sly came out, tried to pass him the letter by he din see. so we shouted "sylvester!!!" damn loudly la. he heard so he turned back to grab the letters! haha! happy happy la. i was damn chao ta by the end of the day. but very fun la! oh! and we got free food too. cause the indo and malaysian drivers pity us... so they got satay for all the fans at our side! yay! they rock~

2004-12-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! do you have any idea how happy gabby is today?!?! ah man! today totally rocked la!!! went to expo with shun, joyce, mengg and shuhui to see sly! lalala` i so long nvr see him le leh! today finally can see him again! YIPEE! hahahaha! just thinking about can make me so high man!

hahahaha! actually i cannot go de lor. as in really CANNOT go lor... haha! cause i din dare to ask my parents mar. but heng man! my parents got no time to go to mass with me (they went yesterday) so i had to go to tp for mass alone today! yayness~ that means i can meet shun and joyce after that cause they got tuition and we gonna end at about the same time! perfect man!

haha. so i left my hse in the morning to go to church. had to drrraggggg myself there man. i was still kinda tired, early in the morning my mother chasing my to bath and hurry up leave for church. haha! -at this time i still not confirm going to see sly yet- i was kinda confused if i should go anot la. cause i scared my mother dun allow, but then i wanna go leh! so i wrote later to sly on my way to church la, supposed to let shun they all pass to him de. haha. i was writing my letter all the way to church lor... it was damn messy, as usual la! but who cares man! got letter can le la. this will be my 5th letter to him le! haha... but all my letters all very messy de! xP

so i was dreaming all the way in mass la, thinking whether i should go anot. haha! i know i know... i very naughty la. but i saw *ahem* man... so long nvr see *ahem* le. haha! ok shall not tok about him now. so after mass i called mengg then decided to go to tuition centre to wait for shun and joyce. i was bout 30min early. and mengg still at home eating porridge. so i decided to write aNOTHER letter for sly la... since my other my so messy and crappy. yuppyupp! so i re-write lor. when mengg reach i just finished my letter. then about this time shun and joyce came out le. so i decided to join them. i called my mother and asked her lor... at first she say cannot lor! so scary! but in the end can la! but must be home by 3pm. :(

haha. so we went to meet shuhui at courts. then we took a cab to expo. they stupid uncle dun wanna let all of us squeeze into one cab, so split 2 cabs lor. joyce, shuhui and me in one. then shun and mengg in the other one. so waste money lor!!! but who cares la. can see sly can le! man! i was so stupid la. i was boredd, so i started crapping away in the taxi. i was toking non-stop to the taxi driver lor. so stupid! haha! but it was fun craping. then joyce and shuhui were laughing away at my stupid-ness la! xP okie! so we reach le, the cab fare was about $9 la. then we went to hall 6 to find mei shi and jennie. thanks for letting us sit there hor! quite a lot of pple there la. we got quite bored. shun, mengg and me went to walk around expo. nothing nice to eat la... so we went back in. then not long after that they came le.

oli appeared first. then the pple at the back dun let us stand, then those in front no space to sit down, so they blocking us. aiyoh... then just half stand half bend down during the whole of oli's performance. SLY came second!!!! ahhhhhhhh! so damn cute and shuai!!!! haha. dun care le man! i just stand up! i just threw the stupid balloon on the floor la! haha. we went crazy man! sly came to our side to take the letters and all, then he din take from my hand at first, then got one girl in front of me helped me to pass them to him. thanks man! haha! then he came to shake hands and all, no mater how hard to try to stretch also cannot reach him la... just a bit more only lor! unfair! haha! he sang "he aint heavy he's my brother" and "an jing" so damn nice man!!! the anjing rocked la! after his performance was taufik's. but by then we went to the curtain there to look for sly le la. we wait outside then the pple dun let us go near lor. SLY popped his head out!!! ahhhh! haha. then oli and sly joined taufik on the stage again. so all the fans crowded there, the pple escort them to the stage then we all trying to touch them. i touched sly's shirt lor. then i FELL! so malu man! the other fans hit me man! then they just continue running, haha! actually i also la. i just stood up then continue running after them le!

then when they were up on stage me shun, mengg, joyce and shuhui were at the back waiting for them to come down la. we heard sly singing taufik sang that malay song! man!!!!! damn nice lor!!!! so cute sumore!!! *faints man* haha. then they came down by the right side. this time not alot of fans hitting me le. then sly walked down... got lotsa pple escorting him man. but i still put my hand infront of him... then... HE GRABED MY HAND! ahhhhhhhh! he looked at my in the eye and grabbed my hand leh! well... that's all i rmb! haha! i was in a total state of shock i cannot rmb wat happened la. then after that we went outside to the van there to wait for them. they came out quite soon la. i was standing at the door there lor. then they went in, then me and shuhui started to bang the van window. haha then oli opened the curtain. then she got that "oh shit! sly fans again" that kind of look. then she closed the window again. ha! sly was at the other side la. hmmm actually today sly looked into my eyes quite a few times. when he was on stage singing his song, when he came to my side there, he was looking right straight into my eyes lor... but then he still din touch my hand. x( haha! but i think most of the time he was looking at my in-pain face la. cause so damn squashed up there lor. it was either i was trying to reach for him, or looking for my bag. haha.

after that we walked round expo. then they wanted to go bugis to eat lunch. but i gotta rush home! i was late lor!!! so i took a cab myself la. haha! great day today man! SLY ROCKS MY WORLD! I LOVE SYLVESTER SIM!!!! i wanna see him again.

2004-12-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

lalala` i miss my blog! awww. so im backk! hees -smiles- i pity my blog man. always get bullied and abadoned by me. wahaha! but who cares man! well. i din blog here for a period of time, i blogged at the -4eva- blog. its cool!
http://www.-4eva-.blogspot.com -- go check it out.
i blogged there, kinda lazy to repeat it here. so i shall do wat i do best! CUT AND PASTE!

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ha! im back to blog le... haha i decided to let my blog rot down there la... too lazy to do anything to it le. xP hmmm. lets see... im going to set off for malaysia tmr! ahhh and im not a single bit happy bout it... not happy AT ALL! cause if i go... it'll mean that i'll be missing the MOST ++IMPORTANT++ event of this month... THE SINGAPORE IDOL - FINAL SHOWDOWN!!! ahhhh! i seriously cannot believe that im actually gonna miss it lor. sigh. but i got no choice la... if my mother knows that i dun wanna go to malaysia "just" cause this singapore idol thing... she'll BRUST man! hmmm she doesnt even know that i REALLY like SYLVESTER lor. she'll kill me if she does... then infront of her i have to pretend that he's "okok" only la... when i actually want to SCREAM on the top of voice! haha. gotta hold it all back. i dun even dare to say "ohhhhh sooo cute!!!" haha... but i do say all that in front of my bro and sis la. they both support sly too! YAY!

anyways... saw sly on thurday (25 nov) again! we went to mediacorp to wait for him, cause he was supposed to go for morning madness on perfect 10! haha. was supposed to meet joyce at 7.20am but i reached at bout 8am. wahaha sorrie! ok... then we "hiked" our way up to mediacorp. it was MADNESS man! cant believe we actually go this kinda siao thing. but it was fun la. ok.. then we saw some people la. okk.. dun care bout them for now. we din know if sly as already inside to we decided to call Daniel Ong to find out la. i toked to him and it went something liddat.

dan: hello! you are?
me: oh hi! im gabrielle.
dan: so you got a qns for sly or taufik right?
me: nope. actually i got a qns for you.
dan: oh for me? ok. yes?
me: is sly already in mediacorp?
dan: erm. taufik is not here yet. but sly... let me check. yupp he's already in mediacorp!
me: oh ok.

and then blah blah blah la.. not impt de. ok not long aft that taufik came running out a cab (he was late la) then he ran up.. well. we din chase la. haha! xP then we carried on listening to the radio.. and gues wat we heard?! dan said "taufik is already here but sly is stuck in a jam" ?!?!?!?! i tot you said he was already inside?!?!?! ahhhh! okok.. so we carried on waiting there. then sly came in a cab. AHHHHH! so we chased him up all the way to the reception. heng.. joyce passed my letter ar.. thanks ar! well.. he looked damn cute man! cause he was wearing this hat thingy.. not cap la. haha! nice! ok.. now i got a qns... why did dan wanna bluff us hurr?! so damn angry lor. sumore actually aft i tok to him on the phone.. i told joyce... "hey! actually daniel's quite nice leh." argh!

okok its a llllooooonnnnngggg post. but i still got somemore things to say leh. well. thursday also went out with 4eva and sharon. haha went bugis. fun fun! actually before that i went to joyce's hse la.. then we say COCKROACH! ahhh! so scary.. but funny la. lalala. and one more thing! mengg is down with fever ever since yesterday. and now im down with fever too! woohoo~ izzit "idol fever"?! haha. im going mad le la. anyways... yuppyupp i really got fever leh. sore throat and my lungs HURT everytime i breathe. haha! is this good? mebbe i dun needa go malaysia le... then can see SLY! but i think cannot de la. my parents wun be happy if they heard i got fever just one day before the trip... (they've always wanted to go) BUT NOW I DUN! okok... i feel like puking actually. wahaha. I MISS SLY! i know you guys miss him too! ahhh! hopefully can see again lor. i will never give up on fulfilling my stupid dream. **rmb the pinkk cap? -winkkwinkk- haha! xP

gabby loves you--
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lalala` so yupp i saw sly once again! ha! oh yes. im back from malaysia! wahahaha! it was misery man. i was down with 'Idol Fever' just on the day before i left singapore. well. 'Idol Fever' is "too much of idol madness" + "terrible fever" haha. yupp yupp i really ill la. fever until bout 40degrees. couldnt sleep at night and all. my mother told me not to go for the trip lor. but i wanted to, if i stayed in singapore, the only reason would be to g for the finals. but i din even have the tix at that time. so i went for the trip. was still feeling damn sick. well, now no more fever but i got terrible cough man. cough cough cough until i feel a bit dizzy now. haha. and i totally lost my voice. i sound like a stupid-idiotic-dunno-who now. and shun says she actually likes my voice now than before. ha! it feels damn uncomfortable for your info. ya ya. im boredd. i miss sly like mad right now. i havent watched the final showdown. man.. they gonna have a session at expo tmr. its a sunday dammit! i dun think i can go lor. shun and joyce is going, how lucky. hopefully i can go too la, but i dun have high hopes tho. sigh. i tiring thinking if i can see sylvester and all. lalala` i prefer to daydream bout him. haha! he's so cute hor? lalala. im boredd. someone talk to me! kk... im getting really sian with blogging. byeeeeeee++

*** oh yes. i changed the skin to sly. haha. cute right? i actually dun really like to have skins with celebrity faces nowadays. but i wanted to see more of sly. so ya. ha! maybe i'll do a song up. ha! but i dun feel like now. ciao!

2004-11-21T15:05:00.000+08:00

sigh. havent blogged for quite a few days le... was too busy with all the sly-chasing thingys. it was all fun but i know the outcome of me chasing another idol will be = heartache again! sigh sigh sigh... too late le la my heartborken le! haiya... its just so painful to have an idol lor. seeing other pple going to their auto sessions, taking pix with them, talking to them. and everything else... then i everything also cannot... so sad de lor. sigh. i knew the outcome le... why did i choose to take this path?! why couldnt i just stay guai guai de?! why must i like sly?! why why why?!?!?!

now all i can do is stay at home and day-dream lor. and call my frends that are at the session... sigh. im back at square one! hmmm how nice huh. haiya. now they having session at J8, i think sly should be out le la... its already 3.15pm lor. i wanted to sneak out de... since my parents not at home. but could not contact joyce, sumore i very scared my parents find out lor... so din go in the end. should have went sia. aiya. i stay in bishan only lor... J8 so near... but yet... sly seems so far. yesterday they were at TP. i was there about 30mins before they came lor.. and again... i regreted not staying. aiya... i forever also so bad luck de la. everytime 5566 or sly or some other pple that i like got session hor... i will be at that place a few days before or after de... always so suay one. kk... shall blog about wat happened!

wednesday// went down to mediacorp with joyce. was hoping that we would see sly or some of the other SI pple. we reached at bout 11++ and stayed till 4++. also never see anyone de lor... we just sat at the reception there slacking away... was damn sian la. and the place was damn freaking cold man!!!! only say 2 other sly fans sitting there too. haha... the mediacorp pple all know that we are sly fans lor... they walked pass then i heard someone say "must be sylvester's fans la" haha. yupp yupp! we are sly's fans!!! SLY ROCKS! ya... regret going on that day la. we left mediacorp then we go J8 for our lunch-dinner. then we went home le.

thursday// went to mediacorp again!!! haha. to wait for sly. we reached at 10-11+ ba. then we saw sly downstairs! ahhhh! he was wearing the singapore idol tee and his red wristband. man! so happy lor! first time i saw him leh!!!!! haha. a whole grp of girls surrounded him downstairs. so joyce and i stayed upstairs, he stayed downstairs for so long. UNFAIR! then the mediacorp pple came down to bring him inside le. we din even get to tok to him! argh! just thinking of it makes my blood boil man! well, it wasnt that bad tho. when he walked past me i passed him the letter i wrote.. and during that passing-process, HE TOUCHED ME HAND! wahhhhhh! haha. i was just kinda shocked for a while la. ok. then joyce and i decided to leave lor. we went to mobile to grab a drink, then went to Orchad i think. (i cant really rmb wat happened, too long ago) OK OK! this is the best part! when i came home i came online lor. then i started chatting on msn. was talking to joel... and after bout 15min of toking, he said he could give me the tix for fri's results show! woohoo~ i din believe it lor. woa woa woa. damn excited leh! then called shun and joyce to tell them the good news! it was bout 5pm++ la. so took a bus down to somewhere near his house to get the tix frm him. wahahahahaha! thanks man! ha! i was damn high la.

friday//the idols went on morning madness. so at bout 9am+ me and shun decided we want to go and look for them after morning madness. so rush rush rush like mad man! hurry up bath and pack up then left the house. met shun in tp and then rushed down to mediacorp. but by the time we reached that too late le. so we went to the reception de downstairs to sit.. then joyce came to meet us. we got started on the "SLY" board that we were gonna hold up during the result show. the board was black to we made the words white lor. we did some downstairs... we looked so crazy man... siting at mediacorp doing a SLY board in the public. everyone was like... looking at us?! haha! some even talked to us on our views of the result-outcome and blah blah. haha! met some nice pple la... but then got this stupid k-po taxi driver say we wasting time only... blah blah. so irritating man! haha! then paint paint paint, we ran out of white paint! so joyce and i went to tpc to get it. we also bought some food. by the time we reached back already quite late le. about.. 4pm++? haha. so we went up to the reception there lor. made some frends, Jennie and Mei Shi. we also offended some pple la... i think its cause we sat on their place. haha. so we moved. and by now we already finished painting la. then MS told us that she can actually go backstage to meet sly!!!! AHHHHH! oh man! lucky girl! ya. so i rushed a letter for him. we passed a whole lot of junk for MS to pass to sylvester lor. hahahahah! thanks leh!!! she was damn nice to make him call us. haha! we all got to tok to him on the phone. man! he sounded damn cute la! and he saw my letter!! he even described it over the phone lor! we were damn excited la. wahahaha! so happy! yupp. then we went into the reception area again to sit down and slack. then about 6+7+ we can go in le. so everyone stand up and que lor. then we walked the carpark way to the tv theathe. it was so exciting man!!!! haha. it was still early la. then got a short breifing by gurmit. he was really funny! he started to act like oli fik and sly. haha! then the result show finally started at about 7.23pm. yuppyupp they started it 7 min earlier! fun fun! we were screaming all the way. seriously some much nicer to me 'live" there man! the feeling totally diff! scream scream scream scream all the way. i didnt really pay attention to wat was happening leh. haha. but i know we went on tv. as in our board la. haha. ya... after the show din go and find them la, we went homw instead.

saturday and sunday// they got sessions on both days. but i couldnt go for both. ha! but managed to write a letter and got joyce to pass it for me! thank you! haha.

haha. fun fun days! hopefully more of these days will come soon! :)) i miss sly.

2004-11-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

hmmm. ahhhh!!! I LOVE SYLVESTER!!! haha. okayyyyy. haha. shocked or anything? wahaha. i actually liked him quite awhile le la. just that i din wanna say anything lor... ya. i din really want to tell anyone that i like him la... but cannot le! i was on the verge of bursting man! ahhhh so high now!

i miss the feeling of being high! i miss the feeling of feeling my cheeks turn HOT RED! haha. i use to also get that feeling alot... once upon a time. ya la... it was during that period of time that i gone totally crazy over 5566!!! haha. it was the best man! it left me many many memories! haha. you know wat... i miss ren fu!!! ahhh! ya... you should have noticed that i slowly slowly stopped going too crazy over 5566 in the past month. cause i suddenly realised that i wasted so much money on a group of people that dun even know me. i realised how much hurt it has caused me too! everytime they come to singapore... i also cannot go and see them cause my parents dun allow me to. very sad one leh! (joyce should know ba) watching all my friends and all their other fans going to meet them... and i have to stay locked up at home. i liked them for soooo sooo long le... ever since their first album was launched. and i havent even seen them before. sigh. everytime they come i will sink to the lowest lowest and sadest point that my heart can feel. i also try to be hopeful... but in the end also cannot go de. they only place i can see them is in the tv and my dreams. ya... that's when i started to day-dream... and now its become a habit. sigh. yall might think i am crazy. and yall might think 5566 sux and all. BUT I LIKE CANNOT AR?!

sigh. so i told myself.. i must stop all this rubbish... i never thought i could actually do it. but i did it!!! the process was painful. in the past... i can talk about 5566 all day and not feel bored at all... i will only feel bored when i dun talk bout them. but now... you talk to me about them i also got no feeling le. (i think joyce noticed) i dunno how come also. but all that matters is that i suceeded! i still do miss 5566 now and then... but not as much le la.

ok... and when i have finally gotten over my beloved 5566... sly has to pop up. haha. i liked him... but i acted like i dun care. i didnt want to care... cause if i did. i was afraid i will fall deeper and deeper for him. i dun wanna suffer all that torture again. i know im the one causing so much trouble for myself. but i cant help it... i am that kind that... if wanna like him then like him like SIAO. if dun like then dun like. its just very painful to hang in the middle of no where. i tried so hard to forget about him and just live my life... but i cant! its getting very serious lately... i can even dream of him. ahhh! someone stop me! do you know that now i like sly as much as i like 5566 in the past. shit shit shit la! sigh. so shocked man! i never thought anyone could replace 5566 in my heart lor. they were my first idol!! no matter how shuai or cute other new idols are i still would like 5566 the bestest of the best. how come now liddat?!

lalala... i think i know why i like him so much le.
1) he is kinda cute la. then sing chi very nice. talented and all that standard stuff la.
2) i miss the feeling of chaing an idol. i miss the HIGH feeling that i use to get in the past. do you know how nice it is to feel high?! (joyce should know) its damn nice one la!!!! like hot hot one.. then like very very very very very happy de. like you gonna explode with happiness liddat! haha. ya... i long to go high. and since sly made me high... thats why i like him.
3) i also always longed to be able to chase my idols. to meet them in person and take pix and all. now is the chance! he's only in MC! haha.
ya... still got more i think... just that i forgot le. i shall go think bout it. OH YES! ***impt*** aft seeing the above stuff... you might think that i like him only because i using him to substitute 5566 and all. but NO! i truly like him for his talents too! so ya... no offence and all.

lalalalalalala... im going high again. oh how i miss the times i went SOO high with joyce. she's my high partner! haha. i always go high when she is around de! sumore now got shun. hopefully tmr can man!!! ahhhhh! highhhhhhhhhhhh.........

2004-11-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

waaaaa. im so tired! haha. went out for the whole day. went to suntec in the morning with my auntie, mom, grandma and jie jie. they went to que up for some bag that the FEMALE mag was giving away. woa!!! when we reached there already got so many pple le lor. all auntie auntie de. hehe. yupp. then we joined in the que lor. actually only pple 18 and above then can collect de. but i dun care la... haha i also collected. we were supposed to fill in this coupon then can collect... then i din fill in my name, ic no, and age. muahaha! and that stupid person din even notice lor. he looked at me and said "only 18 and above leh", then i said "ya!" haha. and he really tot i was 18. kk... the big so auntie one lor. haha not nice! but they like it leh.

hmmm then after that we went to lunch at this noodle shop called "just noodles" or something liddat. my second time eating there. yummy! haha. jie jie treat us de. haha thanks!

after lunch my mom sent my auntie, jiejie and me to taka then she went home with my grandma. so the three of us went shopping!!! haha. we were actually looking for a pressie for my cousin who is celebrating his bday tmr... we decided to buy him an op tee. haha. then my jie jie say she wanna buy a pressie for me too (for the fun of it!) she bought me a black op tee and a blue shorts. hahahahaha! im so happy! thanks hor... jiejie! then we went to paragon there. my auntie bought a blouse there. haha. so there so boring de. the both of them keep looking at shoes and auntie clothes... yupp. then after that we went to cini to have a drink. haha. i drank bubble tea!!! so long nvr drink le! nice nice! then jie jie's bf came to pick us up lor... and sent us home.

lalala... watch SI yesterday night. shit man! i think im falling for sly more and more each day. haha. but of course not as siao as shun la. but i wanna take pic with him!!! ahh! haha. okok im going mad i dunno if i really like him anot la... maybe it's just that i thrist for the sense of accomplishment when i manage to take a pic with him. hmmm i dunno? im still figuring that out! well... but i must agree with shun that he is kinda cute la. waaaa! i feel like going down to MC and see if he's there leh. so cool hor. haha. ya... i should stop my crazy-ness man! haha.

hmmm. so sad to think about it man. next yr 4eva will be splitted up le sigh sigh sigh. its just so weird lor. ya. im sad... arent you? i cant imagine how some pple can be happy that they are gonna be in different classes as their 2003 and 2004 class!!! haiz... how i wish we could be together forever! haha.

kk... i'll stop crapping cause i gtg now! byebye!

2004-11-11T14:06:00.000+08:00

boredd man! i changed the layout yesterday night. ya... not very nice right? a bit too pinkky for my liking... but still ok ok la. i had to change the layout cause was getting too bored of the previous one. and all the nice skins all pinkk pinkk de. so i got no choice la. i will still do some editing i think... and is there any other nicer song to put as bg music?

bahhhh! its so boring at home. went to skool yesterday to do cip. we had to stock-take the skool library. woa... the place is so dusty and the books all torn here and there. the singapore collection books are damn heavy man! we had to move all the books out of the self and bring to the com there to scan. then bring the books back and pack nicely. it was so damn tiring lor... went with shun, mengg and liling. haha had fun. but was damn tiring lor... we did 5 and a half hours of it. ms ratulangi brought cookies down for us to eat tho. we also had macs for lunch. while carrying the books here and there we all got scratched lor... i got red marks all over my hand now. haha. joyce came in the afternoon to hand in her appeal letter. she brought food for us! haha! thanks joyce! when she came, we went out to eat the cookies and rest for awhile. then she went back home and we went back in to do work. there is still alot of books to do lor... as in alot and the librarian's dead line is friday. haha... no matter how many hours of overtime she does also not enough to finish my friday de la. haha. dunno whether should go back on friday to help her anot leh... i dun like to stay at home anyway...

after all that shun and i went over to liling's place for a while. we stayed until about 6 la. was supposed to teach her how to use friendster and help her download msn. but in the end friendster was under maintance and the msn downloading thingy failed. so we ended up playing some games on the com. went home after that.

argh i cant stand my mother man!!! i go liling's house to play she also gotta ask so much. on the way back home she called me. then she was asking "where you go??" "how come you never call me??" "wat did you do at her house??" "where are you know??" 'wat computer thing were yall doing??" man! i explain to her she also wun understand one lor... its the hols!!! cant i go to a friend's house for awhile??? and its not that i din ask for permission... i asked my dad. haha. i din wanna ask my mum cause i know she will question me one lor... my dad just said "ok" he din even ask me so many questions or ask me to explain anything. and... its only the first few weeks of my hols and my mother got sooo many things for me to do. 1)pack your study table 2)pack the toys area 3)read more story books 4)do revision 5)dun watch so much tv argh!!!! its my hols now!!! she was the one that told me "all you need to do is work hard and after the exams you can do wat you want" then now wat?? i want to go out she also gotta ask so many questions. she's so irriating!

lalala... ok i should stop complaining. well later got the once in a month prayer gathering at my house. haha. all my father's frend de family lor. sigh. i hope we finish dinner and prayer before 8.30 lor.. got singapore idol leh!!! cannot miss!!! i think today's one will be quite nice ba... cause got chi songs. haha. yupp. i going to do my template le. byeeeee

2004-11-07T17:50:00.000+08:00

lalala... havent blogged for quite a long time huh. haha. pple that read my blog should know ba... i stop blogging when i get bored o my blog. and YES! i am kinda bored of this skin and all le. so i guess its time to look for a new one! ((too lazy to try to make one))

yuppyupp. its the hols already. im kinda not used to it you know? it just feels weird not having to wake up early in the morning to go to skool. its weird not seeing my frends for sucha long time. during the exam period you could hear me chanting away "holidays holidays... ah i can wait for the holidays" but i dun think i want the hols anymore la. i havent seen joyce in a really long time man! its so weird. i very long never call her le. haha. rmb i used to call her several times a day to ask "wats for homework?" but now no homework le. i miss twooneohfour!!! man... i love 2/1 '04!!! it was a great class. the best class ever. i miss everyone. i wanna go back to skool again!!! i wanna see everyone again!!! but then again... i dun think i wanna go to skool. monday gotta go to skool to collect results of which class we got into. thats when we'll know who will be separated from us. sigh. i cant imagine going to skool but not being with 4eva anymore. its gonna be so weird huh. its gonna be weird not seeing us together anymore. sigh sigh sigh. its just a very sad sad month la...

wells. yesterday i met shun and mengg in tpc when i was going to buy some food for my bro's cat class party. then they walked me to church and all. they wanted to see everyone in my class lor. so had to tell him "oh this is XXX and that is XXX" haha. so ma fan man. haha! yupp... they waited with me until class started... then they left. we had a bit of lesson then FOOD! haha. had a party today cause its the last day of cat class for this year. as usual the class just spilt up into their own gang and all. i was so bored man... clarissa din come. a pity we din hav bonding and all... our class is sooo not bonded. haha.

yupp. today. sunday. nothing much la. went to church in the morning then went for lunch. i have nothing more to say la. so bye!

***happy pple??? i updated!!! haha. :)) I MISS TWOONEOHFOUR!!!

2004-10-24T17:42:00.000+08:00

its sunday. just showed my dad my results... supposed to show yesterday but i dun dare. haha. hmmm at first when he saw the stack of papers, he just flipped through. he din sound angry or anything... caz he din know how to calculate the total mark. but he asked me to calculate it... so i had no choice but to calculate lor. and then it was all 50 60++. then he realised how badly i did. he told me that it was already too late and that this is streaming and all. sigh. i just hope that my CAs will pull me up but a little.

went for cat class yesterday. played this stupid game thingy and had to go around the church. haha! we din even know wat the chapel was. so damn funny when we actually went to the main church and realised "oh! this is not the chapel lar..." haha! yupp. then went to the sfx seminary at night for mass and one hour of praise and worship. it was praise and worship first... its damn fun! the feeling... everyone there was singing their heart out... the music pple were great too. there was the drums! haha! damn cool. the singing was even louder than what you hear in church. the people there are very friendly. the mass yesterday was celebrated by the archbiship. quite boring lar. i love father vincent lee man!!! he rox! usually is he celebate the mass one... but he left for a nother country. so sad! his sermons are the best man! makes everyone laugh!!! haha! but yesterday wasnt that bad lar. we also had the blessed sarcrament thingy brought out for a while. but there wasnt the usual healing bit. yupp. so din go for mass this morning lor.

2004-10-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

Happy B'day SHUN!!!
wahaha! here's your name as promised on my blog!!! lalala. its your b'day today!!! *sings* Happy birthday to you! happy birthday to you! happy birthday to shun li!!! happy birthday to you!!!! YAY! haha... this year 14 le leh... must grow up more hor. dun always so naughty ar... make papa and mama so headache man. haha! anyways. you today got loads of presents hor?? happy?!?!?! haha! hope you like our presents yea? haha! lalala... so high!!! yupp! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! *hugs*

2004-10-22T17:41:00.000+08:00

heyy. ok. i guess im feeling much better now lar. thanks for all the care and concern yea? esp 4eva, bernard and samt they all. haha! wells. hmmm got back all the papers le. they marked my geog paper in the end... heng ar. but i din do very well overall lor. in fact, i did damn badly lar. im so dead! i din even get an A for any sub... not even eng! ahhhh! how how how??? i very scared of my father leh. i havent seen him in a long time! for more than 24hours le. wat to tell him when i see him tmr? i dun think i will dare to wake up tmr morning leh. but i know there's no escaping... we all live under the same roof. sigh sigh sigh...

i showed my papers to my mother yesterday night. i dun think she really looked at it until very detailed and all lar. but i could see that she was disappointed in my results too. VERY disappointed actually... haiz. i din know wat to say to her lor... and wat to do. i dun dare to face my parents le. i dun think my mother will scold me anymore lar... yst night she just told me to better buck up and study more. dun always last minute study. but of course she din tell my so nicely lar.. got a bit of angry, disappointed kinda tone. i felt damn bad. but i wun be happy if she scolded me... but i also not happy that she din scold me. i dunno... i just feel so guilty. that i let my family down. how? my mother is gonna come home soon. and i dun even have a 70marks for her. and how to tell my father tmr. i very scared he scold and cane me lor. but i most scared is that he will feel sad... real sad. but wat can i do bout it?? sigh. i seriously think i din put in enough effort lor. too late.

wells. din feel as bad today. in fact, today was quite fun! got retreat with 2 priests and some people from the CAYC! so damn fun lar! there was so much singing and games and all. and father told us some interesting stories. they made us do a lot of reflection too. many people were very touched by the session and so many people started crying and hugging everyone. i guess that's wat happens in a all-girl school. we are just so close to one other! haha! but at the last part... when we all put our arms round one another and formed an oval with the whole class and sang this maroon5 song. it just felt so sad. maybe this is the last time that 2/1 will ever be standing together and singing a song. we only have one week before we all go in different ways. but 1/1 '03 and 2/1 '04 sure made the first to years of sec school the GREATEAT!!! haha! i personally enjoyed the retreat lar... haha! the CAYC people were really friendly and funny too! :))

hope i wun die tmr. haiz.

2004-10-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

hmmmm. wat can i say?! got back the dammit results today lor. sigh. i havent even enjoyed my hols and the results gotta come now. i nvr expected it to come so quickly. i wasnt prepared. sigh... and the worst thing is my results are damn bad lar! bad as in really bad. all just pass just pass only. my CAs can just pull me down to a fail anytime. i am so dead man. i dunno how to tell my parents bout this. yes... i am afraid that they will scold me and all but the worst thing is they will be damn damn sad leh. i know it... they have very high expectations of me. aft the maths exam my father asked "So how was the maths paper?" i said "Very difficult" then he replied "haiz then no perfect score ar?" please lor... perfect score?!?! i got a just pass only. sigh. how am i supposed to break the news to them?! i dun dare to look at them. i dun dare to even tok to them anymore.

for now. i am not gonna tell my parents that i got my results back yet. maybe tmr maybe nxt week?? i dunno lar! sigh. when we got back our homec paper this morning... i already had a feeling that everything will start going downhill for me. and yes it did! i got my maths paper back. i only got 19.5 out of 50 marks for paper 1 lor... wat perfect score sumore?! sigh. i was trying very hard... really trying to hold back my tears... but i failed. i just started crying down there. i know everyone got a bad shock... esp shun joyce LM and unice they all. sigh. maybe its because i have always been wearing this dammit mask. hiding all my feelings and emotions... why did i do that? i dunno too. everyone knows me as the happy-go-lucky little girl who would not even care if the sky falls down. wellz... thats so not true lor. i cry...i feel sad... i get hurt... its just that you all dunno only mar. but i am really very tired of all this crap le... i just felt like crying. i couldnt help it. im tired of wearing all the different masks... happy masks. quiet masks blah blah. i had a mask for every different class i went to... all the different people i meet. but i hate it! its just so painful... too painful. i want to stop wearing all these dammit masks. but i cant now... i dun even know my true identity... my true personality. i wore the masks for too long, they have became part of me. wat am i to do now?? my masks contridicts each other. im really really tired. i dun wanna think but can i??

just looking at the paper just now... i was very scared. very very scared. i dun think i ever felt like that. looking at the paper and thinking about my future. wat class can i get into? i am i supposed to do? my parents really want me to do well and i know it. i have to support my sis for her whole life. am i able to do that? the medicine? the hospital costs??? i really dunno. i really hope my bro will be able to do well. but i really dun think my sis can make it pass the PSLE this yr. how? my parents will be damn sad. i know... its only one exam and blah blah. so i dun needa worry. can i not worry with all these probs?!?! its streaming this yr. wat i am gonna do without A Maths??? will A Maths course outside be enough??? sigh. wat am i gonna tell my parents??? and my relatives who all had high expectations for me? when can i tell them?? how to tell them?

can i just not think anymore? i just wanna give up everything. i only want my family frends and God. thats it! last time i couldnt bear to let go of so many things... 5566 and blah blah. but i guess i've changed these past few weeks. i dun think im too attached to these things anymore. i can let go of everything. i just need time. hmmm but even with time. can i afford to do this? wat about my sis and my family?! sigh sigh sigh. i cant let go. but i cant stick it either. wat am i supposed to do??? well of course i wun commit suicide lar. thats so stupid. so dun worry! :))

sigh. i really have too many emotions and feelings trapped in me. i really gotta tok to someone. a frend that i can face without having to wear a mask. a frend whom i trust and that can lend me a listening ear. someone who can lend me a shoulder to cry one and after all these. still give a nice big hug and tell me that everything will be all right. wells. thanks everyone who talked to me today. thanks shun for sitting beside me in the canteen and comforting me. thankz lai meng for still smiling at me aft seeing how weak i am. thanks joyce for walking beside me. altho we din say much to each other... but all i needed was to know that you are walking beside me, keeping me company no matter wat happened. and thanks joyce for helping me to think of the combi to get into. and also helping me to find a suitable ambition so that i will have a clearer aim of wat i want to do in future. thanks you all for being there. thanks shannon. for toking to me on msn just now. for telling me that eveything will be fine... for comforting me and all. i guess you did make me feel better. i know you are suffering more than i am. well... you told me to be strong! so you must be strong too. we are in almost the same suituation... so lets stick it together yea? kk. thank you everyone!

ok. aft blogging this long entry. i guess i do feel better. but i still dunno how to tell my parents and everything. i am still very scared. hmmm. lets jut pray that things will be better tmr.
i studied hard. but was it hard enough? i guess not...

2004-10-17T10:04:00.000+08:00

ok ok...
went for cat class yst and watched some boring church history video...
then went home to slack somemore...
then went for mass at 6!!!
bro was sick with fever so din go with us.
he's still sick now tho.
woke up at 6++ this morning...
then watched tv with bro lor...
yawns. im tired.
just finished playing some stupid fighting game with me bro!
he's damn rough lar!
painful leh!!! always punch me one! hmph!
today gonna go out to celebrate daddy's bdae! lalala.
haha! but i dun feel like going...
cause my mother's gonna force me to wear a skirt!
*crys* I DUN WANNA WEAR SKIRT!
hope i dun meet anyone there today leh.
so paiseh! haha!
okok... im totally bored right now...
gonna be a long boring day at home for me!
i wanna watch movie leh! movie movie movie!
ok... im gg crazie. that's just me!

2004-10-16T13:39:00.000+08:00

wahaha so long never blog le...
ok ok exams are officially OVER!
yay! yay! yay! gab is happy!!! :))
but im kinda boredd too.
yawn* im tiredd...
havent been sleeping much caz of the dammit exams
4 hrs a day... haha
i finally can sleep properly today and guess wat?!
parents woke me up at 8 for some stupid morning walk!
i still wanna sleep!!!!
haha! but its ok.
anything is fine as long as exams are OVER! lalala.
gab is in a good mood today!
later still got cat class but no tuition!
supposed to play badminton actually.
but gotta go for mass at 6 today. sigh.
i have decided! to totally enjoy myself!!!!
until results day lar...
okok gtg take lunch then for cat! byebye

2004-10-11T13:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm... came home early today.
had maths exams and it sucked!
i totally screwed the paper up lar!
already lost 23 out of 50 marks in paper 1.
is that bad enough?
sigh.
having a big headache.
tmr's lit and homec..
and i havent started studying for both at all!!!
nope! not a single bit! xP
i am SOOO gonna die!
sigh.
i dunno dare to get my results back man.
i dun even dare to sit for the paper tmr...
can i not go to skool???
its only the paper and i already feel so...SICK!
sigh... rmb... only 3 days more! (wat shun says)
wellz... i better go mugg mugg mugg more!

2004-10-10T16:00:00.000+08:00

just came backk home
sian.
very moody today. dunno y feeling liddat oso.
maybe its the dammit exams!
tmr's maths le! yst's maths session helped loads!
thankz auntie! :))
sigh. moody moody moody.
din really tok much to anyone today.
it was just so hard to even smile.
boredd stuck at home
parents went for funeral
very scared of tmr's exam leh.
i just cant do maths! wat if i fail?
i wanna get into a A maths class leh.
sighsighsighsighsigh
wellz! im sure i'll feel much better aft exams! :)
i wanna go shopping and movie-ing man!
cant wait!
soooo excited for the hols but hate the exams!
anws... did some linkking just now.
i have no idea y i only start to care bout my blog during exam periods?
its just weird. haha
i better go look thro some maths stuff now!
byebye
gd luck for exams yea?

2004-10-09T16:32:00.000+08:00

so hows this new layout?
i needa nice eng song for this blogg
care to help me out?
restarted my whole blog...
it was getting a bit messy huh?
haha. shall add my linkks some other time
tiredd wanna sleep yawn
hmmm dun really watch tv too much now
gd or bad?? but i watch SI tho!
i think the best wld be sylveser or maia
sly is quite cute i must say!
shun is crazie over him...
his frm this lai shi fei band
i checked out their site
its rawks man!
layout was great great great!!
band not too bad either... :))
kk...
now i really gtg!

2004-10-09T16:06:00.000+08:00

kk... back to blogging again!
but i dun think i will carry on blogging for long tho
i start and stop all of a sudden one... you shld know
haha. im just so lazy (( u shld know tt too))
wellz. just boredd of studying. so blog!
supposed to be mugging today while parents went out with bro.
but didnt really mug. watched one episode of zjzd!
haha! slacked a lot! but the show was GREAT!
i love that show man! storyline quite good!
wellz.. exams nxt wk le!
its too near... too fast!
havent really studied much actually...
gd luck to me man! x)
gg to granny's place later for dinner..
yummie!
but also gg for intense maths revision...
with my aunt! ahhhh!
haha! okie... i better get gg!
gonna study geog for a lil while more!
byeeeeee